You

How can it be explained
the endless hours, minutes, heartbeats
spent on you, loving you

How can it survive time, distance
irrelevance, impropriety
wisdom and boredom alike

How it grew to sustain me
in the desert of pain and want,
a water less sea of internal life

Why this hiccup of attraction
became the lifesaver
in an awful, compromised fairy tale

Honestly, it makes me want to believe
in heaven and hell,
the insanity of the bell jar