Tuesday, April 26, 2016

 Pearls


Brooch, earrings, bracelet
icons of tears held unbroken under ribs,
or  a mere irritation, a speck you can't flick off
that grew into  luster stones,
heaving with love's pain

 Frozen eggs, cursed with eternal suspension
 the ideal spell, yet not a life

Tokens of a cast connection,
fed by the endless ocean,
I don them on, a thespian,
as I pray in your altar
displaying my insincere devotion

A Man, in my God's eye


Strong arms,
to cradle fragile infants
sheltering frame,
 to bolster weak saplings
steely gaze, to launch  a thousand dreams 
broken pride, to honey up the bitterness
infinite mercy, to lavish on trembling sinners
compassion, to float a sunken soul
sacrifice, to bestow grace
A communion of man and divinity,
a resurrection promise
that gifted salvation to me
are you

Friday, April 22, 2016



February 3, 1950 - April 22, 2009

Rest in peace sweetie boy






It is late now, I am a bit tired; the sky is irritated by stars. And I love you, I love you, I love you – and perhaps this is how the whole enormous world, shining all over, can be created – out of five vowels and three consonants."

— Vladimir Nabokov, from Letters To Vera 

Rafts



While here, we float on rafts,
we row, racing the currents of life
 to reach to the other side

Some, mere sticks, held together with twine
some velvety  plush, sealed tight
against disaster leaks and enemy fire

We hold on, we raise flags, beams, canopies
we shift and turn, positioning best for a passage
and destination yet unknown

But I will jump off, midway, and sink to the bottom
  wetness will smother my fire,
 I will let go of air and spirit,
for love it isn't love
until its past


Thursday, April 14, 2016



Melancholy


Blooms asunder, bright light quieted,
perfumed air stilled,
what does memory's burden bring
this eve?

A lost boy, earth's day first tribute,
a pain renewed each spring,
a longing that knows no quenching-
my heart be still


What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why, 
I have forgotten, and what arms have lain 
Under my head till morning; but the rain 
Is full of ghosts tonight, that tap and sigh 
Upon the glass and listen for reply, 
And in my heart there stirs a quiet pain 
For unremembered lads that not again 
Will turn to me at midnight with a cry. 
Thus in winter stands the lonely tree, 
Nor knows what birds have vanished one by one, 
Yet knows its boughs more silent than before: 
I cannot say what loves have come and gone, 
I only know that summer sang in me 
A little while, that in me sings no more. 


Edna St.Vincent Millay

Tuesday, April 12, 2016






Desire + Attention = Attraction
Attraction / engagement + repetition = Learning




Sunday, April 10, 2016

T.S. Eliot (1888–1965).  The Waste Land.  1922.

The Waste Land



I. THE BURIAL OF THE DEAD

APRIL is the cruellest month, breeding
 
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing 
Memory and desire, stirring 
Dull roots with spring rain. 
Winter kept us warm, covering         5
Earth in forgetful snow, feeding 
A little life with dried tubers.



Love in April, always tender,
never easy

Saturday, April 9, 2016



I love you so


When the mist veils the first ray at dawn,
when the dusk dims the last light,
when the mourning dove coos a new start,
when the velvet blue signals Orpheus's hand,
I love you so, near me, with me


When the noon heat exhausts the effort,
when the day grows old and spent,
when the spirit of giving is no more,
when it is time to get home
I love you so, by me, holding me


When life is running out of time,
when the years weigh heavy,
when tomorrow is not certain,
when the pain gets louder,
I love you so, with you I can go on






Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Green and yellow





  The tender green of buds, spring's charge
to reach the sun, fresh, hopeful, untried
like an easy life
an idyll of innocence and intend,
is everywhere I turn.
It colors  the promise of beginnings,
tempers the blues of the spectrum,
  its own headiness,
a delirium of love, lends sparkle
to an ordinary day, same among myriad others,
what a splendid future to be had, for certain!



 The vivid yellow of dandelions,
unruly, undesired, prolific in their advances
like addictions or at least bad habits,
on their way to set bitter roots and puffball heads
casts a shade somber, contrast
to them green buds.
Portraits of chances forfeited, of roads not taken,
or of those you got stuck on forever
of blooms discarded, without fruit
and of acid preservation too,
 wishes  undelivered yet Grace reckoned them saved and absolved






Saturday, April 2, 2016

 Comfort and Joy




I pull the lavender scented sheet to my face,
 its soft, white caress wraps my body
as I imagine your embrace would,
warming my core and limbs

I am drifting to sleep holding my shoulders,
 placing an x and and o
on each corner of my being
as I want you to be doing to me

I dream of you coming in the night,
coming in to me
and I find bliss in a borrowed tale,
still all the same to me